Well I'll start with the lesson - I cannot let myself get ravenously hungry. I cannot let myself be out of control around triggering junk food. Being ravenously hungry around triggering junk food is bad.

Thus, tonight was bad.

Friday is our pizza night, so I do plan junk in anyway, but usually I have been home a day and have eaten enough that th pizza is more of a side dish than main course, and I eat a slice or two. Well we went out to Costco tonight, fairly late due to having to do a grocery run (payday was today) for the weekend. Picking up a Costco pizza is no big deal, but being starving with fussy kids and having to hold it all the way home after a long day, is!

So I was shoving pizza in my mouth, the kids' mouths, running in groceries and TRYING to cut up broccoli to cook for something else to eat. I ate mindlessly and a bit out of control, and though I only went over my calories by about 500 (so still within maintenance) I am disappointed I couldn't stop myself with less. Being overly hungry is bad enough, but I can usually slow myself down with healthy food and let my stomach realize it is getting fed before doing serious caloric damage. But that is the problem wih calorically dense and nutritionally weak junk food like pizza - once your stomach realizes it is full, if you're not eating mindfully you consume huge amounts of calories that could have been avoided by eating more frequently and choosing healthier choices.

So to be brief, I consumed:

Approx. four medium slices of pizza

Two cups steamed broccoli

3.5 oz. Turkey lunchmeat

Two tbsp. chocolate chips

One small brownie

It's not the end of the world, but it's the most out of control my eating has been in months (splurges have been within my calories or planned) and is a valuable reminder that eating slowly and mindfully, nutritionally dense food and planning my meals is the way to manage my eating. I logged and overestimated my calories, and it's just a minor, minor blip, but humbling none the less (especially on the heels of a good food day and a loss this morning).

Tomorrow is another day, here's to my regular breakfast and a walk to the farmer's market and butcher in the morning :)