That's this morning, anyway. A struggle to get going, keep my eyes open, do things cheerfully... I can do it through Christ, and that's the extent of it.

I'm also mysteriously struggling with my diet. Again. Easter threw me off with salt and water retention, then my weight has been higher than it 'should' have been, given what I have been eating and doing (workouts are going great!). I know, logically, that I cannot control the scale, only the behaviors each day, so I am trying to focus on those. I wish I hadn't gotten off track because getting back in the groove is a pain.

I have to do it, however. One meal at a time. Saying no to myself. Spending calories wisely. NO grazing while cooking. I can do it, I can discipline my mine and body, now it is time to buckle down again. If I want health, to look great at my brother's wedding, a cute little purse, and the satisfaction of achieving a normal weight, well then I'd better get my butt in gear!

I will record my weight later, I still have to nurse Seth again (that can throw it off by as much as half a pound, he's a champion eater!), then today is piano lessons on top of the normal schedule, capped by an anniversary dinner with my husband (in which I will do my best to make smart choices, but you better believe I am conserving calories and eating leanly throughout the day to save for it!). We've been married five wonderful years as of this Friday, and he has been such a blessing to me. For him, for our children, for myself, I want the next fifty years to be healthier than the first five. I'm already down lower than I was when we got married, by a significant margin, and I can do better, still.

All things through Christ who strengthens me. Overeating and sinning in regard to laziness and gluttony isn't honoring God, and in this I pray for His strength and discipline. That is my strength - how do YOU conquer your food and exercise issues?