This morning I was home from church, tired from Lilah's fussing last night and not feeling well.

I received two calls in the space of ten minutes though I let them go to message (I was trying to nap), once the second call came in I knew something was wrong.

The news was that my other grandmother, Grandma Davidson, passed away this morning.

I didn't know this at first, but she had been feeling poorly this whole week, and had stopped eating and drinking a few days ago. She woke up at 5:30 am with a backache, and my grandpa gave her a massage and started the vibration on her bed to help her sleep. She went back down to sleep soon after, and when the alarm went off at 8:30 am for church, she wouldn't wake up. He went over to wake her, and realized she was gone.

I got this information from my Uncle, who is over at their home with all the rest of the family arriving. I'll be getting details on her funeral soon, and will fly down for both her and Grandma Oslin's memorial service.

I was always pretty close to both grandmothers, and loved them dearly, so losing both in the space of three days has just been too much. At the same time, both had a myriad of health problems and were believers, so I am assured that they are in a much better place and communing with the Lord. I am missing them, but at the same time I'm happy that they are away from all the pain and anguish of a fallen world.

Still, please be praying for my family and me, that we may have peace and understanding through this difficult time, and that we will rely on God's strength as our solace, and not our own desperate, flawed knowledge. I cannot do this, can't take this much grief, so I am deeply grateful that my burdens are not shouldered alone, but instead laid at the feet of the God of the Universe. Praise the Lord, that in the face of such emotional pain I have peace in His strength and plan.

It's a lot, but I have far more lasting hope and joy than despair. I'll be okay, but now is time to grieve and gather ourselves to celebrate the lives of these two wonderful women.